Friday, October 5
Some things you just can't Hakuna Matata your way through
I don't blog much anymore in general. Let alone at this one. For some reason I feel compelled to write here again.
I'll be honest, losing Megan has been tough. Toughest thing I've ever faced. It's one of those things that happens in life that you're not sure you'll ever really recover from ...
Yeah, you'll move on ... eventually be happy again ... lead a normal life. But you'll never really recover.
It's really sad actually, so I'd rather not dwell on
it.
I think this certainly taught me that there are some things you just can't Hakuna Matata your way through.
In high school, when I broke a bone or struggled with grades, I could always smile my way through it. When I was diagnosed with Narcolepsy I rolled with the punches, whenever Megan and I fought I always kept saying Hakuna Matata ... when she left for England I said it over and over in my head through the tears ... and when she came back and I didnt know if I wanted to even see her, I gave her the biggest hug and kiss I possibly could because hey, Hakuna Matata.
I've even Hakuna Matata-ed my may through being kicked out of my major and not being allowed to student teach because I'm not a good enough person.
I've done a fair job keeping Hakuna Matata in mind when things were at their worst.
But somethings you can't Hakuna Matata your way through. This is one of them. Even now ... I mean I have a lot of happy moments. I'm generally getting over it well ... met a few girls, even kinda have one I'm sort of seeing. Although nothing official. I don't dwell on Megan or the fact she has a completely new life .... that we're not really friends. I just don't look over my shoulder much, and I keep plodding forward.
I'm generally fine with everything ... in good spirits. Some would even say I've turned that corner and I'm in the home stretch.
But like I said, there are some things your really never bounce back from. Not really. You move on, you change, you fake happiness and then you are happy, but you never really bounce back.
You know, considering this blog was initially for inspiration, love and to help others in a long distance relationship, it's now just full of sadness, misery, heartache and a pretty bleak outlook.
I'll be honest, losing Megan has been tough. Toughest thing I've ever faced. It's one of those things that happens in life that you're not sure you'll ever really recover from ...
Yeah, you'll move on ... eventually be happy again ... lead a normal life. But you'll never really recover.
It's really sad actually, so I'd rather not dwell on
it.I think this certainly taught me that there are some things you just can't Hakuna Matata your way through.
In high school, when I broke a bone or struggled with grades, I could always smile my way through it. When I was diagnosed with Narcolepsy I rolled with the punches, whenever Megan and I fought I always kept saying Hakuna Matata ... when she left for England I said it over and over in my head through the tears ... and when she came back and I didnt know if I wanted to even see her, I gave her the biggest hug and kiss I possibly could because hey, Hakuna Matata.
I've even Hakuna Matata-ed my may through being kicked out of my major and not being allowed to student teach because I'm not a good enough person.
I've done a fair job keeping Hakuna Matata in mind when things were at their worst.
But somethings you can't Hakuna Matata your way through. This is one of them. Even now ... I mean I have a lot of happy moments. I'm generally getting over it well ... met a few girls, even kinda have one I'm sort of seeing. Although nothing official. I don't dwell on Megan or the fact she has a completely new life .... that we're not really friends. I just don't look over my shoulder much, and I keep plodding forward.
I'm generally fine with everything ... in good spirits. Some would even say I've turned that corner and I'm in the home stretch.
But like I said, there are some things your really never bounce back from. Not really. You move on, you change, you fake happiness and then you are happy, but you never really bounce back.
You know, considering this blog was initially for inspiration, love and to help others in a long distance relationship, it's now just full of sadness, misery, heartache and a pretty bleak outlook.
Labels: Breaking-Up
Jim 11:25 AM
